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I've been having odd flashbacks all week, feelings that have nothing to do with my current situation...
And I've been thinking about my fears, from my childhood and now.
There's one thing I've been wondering for a couple of years now; as a child I was sometimes scared of my father... and I mean dead afraid. And he's never, ever, done anything that would cause it. And as an adult woman, I've noticed my aversion of... well, getting anything, and I mean anything, inside of me. You know what I mean, and if you don't, don't ask. These are a couple of my biggest problems...
So, I decided to try some meditation tonight. I light my incense and candles and lie down. Immediately I feel that something's wrong.
I get the normal dizzying feeling, like I'm going round and round on the floor. But then I feel my eyes starting to flutter and trying to stay closed and open at the same time and I start feeling afraid. I see a black expanse of water, no sky, just black, black water. I feel like curling up in the boat I'm in and I seriously feel my body starting to shake - physically, the body on the floor, not the one in the little boat. Then I see snow covered hills, like in Lapland, I step out of the boat into the icy water and get to the snowy shore. My ankles tingle and my body gives a huge shudder and I start crying.
I have stop here and come out of the trance. I can't go on any further. I sit up from the floor and try to stop crying. I still shudder, but I know it'll pass.
I stopped the meditation about fifteen minutes ago, and I'm still shaking and I'm having some difficulties breathing. So I think this is a meditation I'm going to need help with. I really need to know what's happening.
Anyone have any hints?
The place you saw while meditating... It's possibly a memory from your past life. A very scary, disturbing one, since your body reacted so strongly like that.
ReplyDeleteI think you're about to realise something very big and important about one of your past lives and yourself, but you're not fully ready to face it yet.
So don't push it sweetie, although you're having those flashbacks. *huggle* Keep on meditating, take walks in the forest if possible, and write down your feelings and thoughts. But... I think you should try to .. well, avoid thinking of your past lives for now, and think about your experience with care before continuing with this type of meditation.
Your body is a trustworthy instrument of situations you should steer away from, and tonight's reaction was so strong...
I hope this made some sense and that my words are of some, even a little, help for you. <3
Yes, I think it was. And I know I've been there before, too. I once had this past life hypnosis done to me, and the landscape was familiar from there, but it was autumn then.
DeleteThank you for the tips, I'll try doing that.
I really didn't expect such a physical reaction from this. I mean, I've shaken before when meditating but never this bad. I'm honestly a little afraid of going forward with this, but I need to know. ^^'
I too think it's not a bad idea to get to know what happened in that certain past life, but right now your body is telling you you're not ready for it yet - so, take it slow, dear. *hug*
Delete(One day I hope to get to this type of meditation too, to know about my past lives... but right now even relaxing my body and to keep my mind calm while meditating is difficult enough...)
It's possible you've experienced something horrible and violent in that past life (thinking how you used to fear your own father, and those aversions then..), which affects your current life and is the reason why your body reacted like that - something deep within you remembers those horrors, and goes into shock.
Those who have experienced something horrible very often push away those memories at any cost, and their bodies react pretty much the same as yours did when forced to face something similar as the original, horrifying situation.
To overcome that past-life situation, something in you wants to go back there and make you face the situation your past-life-self possibly wanted to escape so much. Yet something else in you signals that now's not the right time.
Out of curiousity, what could've possibly triggered these flashbacks? Is there anything that could be stressing you? Did something happen that suddenly brought those past-life memories to you? Something has maybe begun to ring a bell at the deep end of your mind that something in your current life reminds your soul of that past-life... Just a guess, though. ^^; But maybe something to think about?
I didn't even think that it could've been real shock, but now that you mention it I think it really was that. Wow... O.O
DeleteI think it was because I'm turning 25 in a week and I was thinking my situation in life and wondering about a lot of things... Don't really know. But after the flash backs started, the idea about the past life thing came from a book called Varjojen Taika.
Well, I've read a lot about victims' stories, and have talked with people who have gone through horrible things and they've shared their reactions. ^^; And your body's reaction just struck similar to that of going into shock.
DeleteHmm... Well, the trigger doesn't always have to be anything big, a small, tiny thing... Like, hmm, I have a big aversion towards older men. I have my suspicions why this could be, but then again I find it so irrational... It's almost hatred toward older men who try to approach me - hatred that stems from some sort of great fear. I just need to see an old man somewhere and I immediately start planning how to avoid them, I'm afraid of them and summon hatred from within me to protect myself. Any old man (over 70 to be clear, or with grey/white/silver hair) triggers these emotions, no matter how nice they look. Something in my past has probably happened that causes this, but my mind denies it so well I can't even imagine what could've happened.
...Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that something has probably occured in your current life that triggered those memories from the past. ^^; Maybe if you could remember what that trigger - or triggers - was, then it could be a clue into your past-life?
(I'll try to find that book, too.)
Just random thoughts here, trying to figure out what could be helpful for you... ^^; tee-hee... Anyway, I hope you get it all sorted out and that you'll feel better soon. *huggle*